I’ve started and stopped my celebrating breastfeeding post so many times. There are so many things I want to say that I just don’t have the words for. There are so many moments that I cherish. There is so much for me to celebrate and be thankful for I didn’t know where to start.
Then, as I fed my youngest to sleep, I found the words I want to say.
My breasts aren’t the same anymore…. my body has changed
Two pregnancies have taken a toll on my body. Twice my body has swollen to accommodate my growing child. Twice I’ve give birth. And twice my boobs have achieved that “pammy double d” look that described my milk coming in.
That’s a lot for a body to take. Up. Down. Hormones pumping.
My breasts aren’t the same anymore…. they’re bearing the scars
Stretchmarks fading to silver snaking down the side from what can only be described as over inflation.
My nipples growing in size to sustain my little one. Constant scratch marks from little hands pummeling me with sharp nails. Tiny bite marks.
Lopsided from uneven feeding. Lumpy from blocked milk ducts.
Cased in unattractive cotton clip bras (unless I’m wearing my Lorna Drew!)
My breasts aren’t the same any more…. but that’s OK
Battered and bruised.
Sagging and drooping.
It doesn’t matter. What my breasts have done is incredible. Providing my boys with the best start in their lives from their first taste of colostrum to the final feed.
My breasts aren’t the same anymore…. they’re so much more
Helping my boys grow.
Helping to comfort. To relieve pain. To stop tears from falling.
The memory of a weary head in the crook of my arm as he finally gives in to sleep by suckling.
The feel of a warm, small, hand on my breast as he feeds, the need to get closer to me.
The moments I can steal, alone, with my baby breathing his sweet smell.
The cuddles given and the stillness of my active little one.
So my breasts may not be the same anymore. But I wouldn’t change it for the world.
The code word for the Celebrating Breastfeeding Christmas Extravaganza is TINSEL.
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